Yesterday...Today....Tomorrow....

Time waits for nobody
Time waits for nobody
We all must plan our hopes together
Or we'll have no more future at all
Time waits for nobody...

These are the lyrics of the song TIME from Freddie Mercury's Album THE PRETENDER...

As this song says...time for sure waits for nobody.While i was a kid in school...how much i wanted to always stay in school so that I could always stick together with my buddies...But of course,that time elapsed and i had to bid adieu to my most special friends...Nothing could ever be compared with the joy that comes from being with childhood friends and i am sure everybody would agree with me on that...However,just like everybody,I had to move on with the heartbreak..When i was in college,i enjoyed the days thoroughly...the pressure of assignments, projects, presentations and what not was always there but i had never wanted those years to pass...but they did pass leaving an indelible memory...When I think of tomorrow,i again do not want my TODAY to pass...But it will pass away...

I had read somewhere....

Yesterday is HISTORY
Tomorrow is MYSTERY
Today is a GIFT
That is why it is called the PRESENT...

I have always lived my today but i cant stop reminiscing my past and ponder over my future...However,i will try my best to make the most out of the PRESENT that comes in the form of TODAY!!!

For the entire lyrics of the song TIME,Click Here

Fantasy Vs Reality

I am having too much of exposure to movies these days,despite the fact that i hardly have any free time (office,GRE,University Search,Household activities,social obligation,Leo Club,etc) but one thing i have learned very well is the Art of Time Management, and the number of movies that i manage to watch is the proof. Anyway, i was talking about movies...All the movies that i watched had one common thread: they all had a very very "Happy Ending"-the lovers get to "live happily ever after" or the villian is put in a life-term sentence or is killed. Wow,the perfect ending for anyone.But i was forced to contemplate how real are the stories??I have hardly seen Happy Endings in people's lives.The "good souls" in real life are the ones who suffer ultimately.This is,however,not to say that i advocate being a Nefarious person.No matter what,you should do things that are acceptable to your conscience.

Going back to movies,i was wondering Why is that happiness is so hard to find in the real life? Why is that people have to struggle so much to achieve something?Why is that we cant have that smile on our lips ALWAYS? It makes me frustrated at times because the HEROES in the movies get it with the blink of an eye but why is that we keep blinking eyes and nothing magical happens??Why is it that not every Cinderalla is saved by a godmother?

Of course it is disappointing but i also get answers at times.I think that had we got everything that easily,we would never know the value of getting something after a hard day's labor. Also,had we never overcome sadness,we could never know the value of happiness. So that we don't take things for granted,god has created so many stumbling blocks in our lives to help us keep grounded and teach us to value what we have and strive for more.

I do understand the reasons behind everything,but despite that i would want that little magic to happen in my life sometimes where i think of something and it just happens with the turn of a Magic Wand...

Till Next...waiting for that magic!!!

3 cheers to Sailee Basnet...

I have heard it for nth number of times and I finally understand what people meant when they said, “Great things come in small packages.” Nobody ever thought this petite little being would create wonders, and would win a fight against nature. She was my senior at college (though she doesn’t look like one), and I always thought of her the most lighthearted girl I have ever met. Today, when her name is being written in history of the nation, it makes me feel so proud of the fact that I know her.

Shailee Basnet managed to scale the world's highest peak along with nine other women from the First Inclusive Women's Sagarmatha Expedition (FIWSE). She has marked her name as the First Nepalese Female Journalist to scale the Everest. Before the attempt, the closest Shailee had come to mountains was writing about them. However, after meeting the team leader Sushmita Maskey for profiling the expedition for Himal Media, she became intrigued and knew that she had to join those 9 women on their quest to reach the top of the world.



Having completed her Bachelor’s degree in BBIS (Bachelor’s of Business Information Systems) and Post Graduate degree in Journalism, she has made her mark as a young journalist working as a staff reporter for Himal Media. She has always been interested in extreme sport and her interest in climbing and mountaineering was ignited because of the physical and mental challenge it poses on the climber. Challenges never daunted her and this is one reason that she undertook the courageous task of reaching the highest peak. Shailee, along with the other 9 members of the team underwent an intensive training for 10 months, starting from October.

The grueling sessions did pay off, and Shailee was able “to win her fight against nature”, as she prefers calling it. Her parents, who had no idea about her daughter’s feat until before her name was flashed all over the papers, are today proud of her. Shailee has made all the Nepalese proud of her achievement and i wish her the best in all her future endeavors, whether it is Reporting or it is Mountaineering….Kudos to you and your spirit!!!

Photo Credits: Himal Khabarpatrika, Nepali Times
For more about Shailee's quest read her article
Magical,Majestic,Mystical

The Star..

We have so many luminary figures who we admire and respect with all our might...They are there everywhere: on television, in newspapers, billboards and magazines. We look upto them for so many different reasons:someone is a great singer who soothes our senses when we are down,someone is a great actor who makes us go gaga over the way he/she looks/dresses/acts...whatever!!!Then there is someone who is a great Samaritan- doing things to make the lives of people a better haven to live...There are many people who have inspired me as well but sadly they are not "public figures" and there are very few people who know about them. However, they have made me ponder over the courage that they possess.Here,i will be talking about this girl named Asmita who has taken me by surprise by her perseverance.I know her through a local club.Very recently,she had to face a tragedy: her father passed away of a heart attack.She, at present,is studying in Class 12. However, she refuses to give up and has already made plans on how will she help her family come out of the loss. She is extremely interested in journalism and she has already taken up some courses to hone her skills.Her father was into journalism as well and she is all set to continue the legacy.She is the eldest daughter and the way she has handled the entire situation is admirable.At her age, i had nothing to worry about and had taken life for granted but when i look at her,i keep wondering:where does she get that courage from?She is a true star for me...

MYSELF....

I don't want to write anything today except for some little things that turns me on...The list is small...i am not a very demanding person, and you will find that once you go through the list, though i will try not portray myself as superficial:
1. I love the smell of popcorn...it completely turns me on...i can munch popcorn anytime..anywhere...
2. The tingling sound of bangles soothes my senses...don't know the magic that they hold but i love them
3. The pictures of me with my school buddies
4. A nice company
5. A kiss from my nieces
6. A stroll with a friend in the evening
7. A good book at my bedside table
8. Meeting an old friend on the road, very very unexpectedly
9. The innocent smile of a new born
10.Being on my own engulfed in my world of dreams.....

Will we never change?

This is an article published in The Himalayan Times on 1st of July 2008.
Will we never change?Will we keep on killing and torturing women in the name of dowry?
Do we still think that it is the dowry that will help us survive?
This disgusts me.....it really does.....

Nostalgia

I am missing so many people at the same time...i am missing my family,i am missing my frens from school,i am missing every single moment of love,and i am missing my time before this year...i cannot come out of the nostalgia...i just cant!!!

Rain...

I love when it is raining. I enjoy my time at home while the rain pitters and patters on my window pane...i like to indulge myself in a steaming cup of coffee and smell the aroma that comes from the soil after it rains...i like to get myself drenched in the rain without bothering if anyone is watching me...I like to see the raindrops falling on an already made water pond and how they keep on increasing in circles....However, i do not like rain when i am walking on the streets and a car comes and splashes the dirty water on me......

Irony of life

Special Moments...Gone!!!
Special Person....Gone!!!
Special Memories...Remain!!!

What does my world comprise of???

I have named this blog as KHUSHBU's WORLD but now i am left wondering...what does my world comprise of...I have ambivalent viewpoint on issues....i am saying one thing at the moment and then completely contradictory things the other moment...i am torn between two worlds and i dont like the feeling at all...I have abandoned some important people in my lives to make other important people happy but it does not mean that the former ones were not important...see...i am again giving ambivalent opinion...what am i supposed to do??What is my world all about??i really need some time to prod over the issue.....

What's so special about the PALACE?

This is the "Palace" where our deposed king is to stay...I don't know if i am supposed to comment but i just wonder why did he choose to ask for such a place which has nothing spectacular about it....I believe he could have built something better than this on his own rather than "asking" for something like this...Only he knows......

Protect the Environment

Its World Environment Day today..Many educational institutions and nature clubs were part of a rally organized early in the morning with an objective to make people aware of the fact that our environment is suffering and we need to protect it.I just wonder how many of those participants practice environment friendly activities themselves because many of them were carrying plastic bags and were dumping the mineral water bottles everywhere..I believe that you need to change yourself if you want to see the world changing...Even i carry plastic bags despite the incessant pleas from nature workers that we should use paper or jute bags...Well i will try to do the latter today onwards..Some things that i would want others to practice this year would be:

-Use dustbins, and if you do not find dustbins everywhere,keep the waste in your bag.You can always dump it when you reach home
-Stop cutting trees in the name of DEVELOPMENT (thats especially for our development pundits)
-Plant one tree in your life (the joy of seeing it grow is immense)
-Use water prudently
-Men...remember walls are not your loo...so please please do not (i hope you understand)..thats really really gross
-Reuse products when possible
-Switch off the lights,fans,and computer while you are not using them
-And of course say NO to Plastic Bags

I hope at least some follow these advice...Small things make a huge difference...Enjoy Protecting our environment!!!

A special dedication... (You Were Meant For Me-Jewel)

I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far away from where I've been
I got my eggs, I got my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off of the mirror, don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore 'cause
Dreams last so long, even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
I Called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad cause
Dreams last so long, even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
I go about my business, I'm doing fine
Besides, what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken every day

I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a book and turn the sheets down and then
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I, I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause
Dreams last so long, even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
Yeah, you were meant for me and I was meant for you

The falling star....

A star twinkling...
It breaks and falls
Mama said, make a wish
So i did...

It was all fake
Falling star did no miracle
Nor were my wishes fulfilled
When i see a falling star today
I just remember my mama
And i make no wish...

Update....

Today i saw the beggar with a brand new MP3...Interesting!!!

Happy anniversary ma and pa....

Its my parents anniversary tomorrow...Myself being an anti-marriage person,its hard for me to comprehend how two people can stay together for so many years.I have seen my parents fight over petty issues like what to gift a friend's daughter on her marriage to whether to travel on bus or via air to get to a certain destination.However,i must admit,amidst these fights,there is this undying love between them,and it is one reason that helps them fight all odds of life.They are solace to each other when they have noone else around to share what they feel,even their children fail to understand them but they understand each other completely and this is what have kept their love alive for all these 30 years.I am not there with them today but i wish them a very HAPPY ANNIVERSARY.I dont know if my parents will ever read this blog of mine but i want to tell them that i really really love them and want to make them proud parents one day...Love you both!!!

Waiting.....but for whom and what???

Oh lord...am again late for my office...my boss is gonna get horrified....Please god please...may a micro van be waiting to get it's last passenger.....These thoughts are running over my mind when i reach Ratna Park to catch a micro for office...Ratna Park,no wonder is crowded with students hurrying for school,employees running for offices,and vendors not running but screaming on top of their lungs,to sell their goodies to the passers' by...Amidst all of them,there is one person who caught my attention,a young man in his mid thirties is lying there with his clothes torn,skin tanned with extreme exposure in the sun,and a feeling of indifference towards everything on his face.There is this handkerchief in front of him where he expects people to give him some money in the name of "charity."Well,this man is healthy,doesnt have a broken limb,his eyesight is pretty good,and his arms are strong enough to do any kind of work.So why does he chose to live a life of such misery,depending on people to feed him and clothe him??My question remains unanswered.People pass by,and some "Samaritans" help him by donating Re 1 to Rs.10. There is a total of around Rs.20 in his handkerchief..well, enough to buy him his breakfast for the day....I see him,i see people fulfilling their social responsibility,but since i dont advocate begging..i move on..By the way i was getting late for office....I manage to catch the bus....The story does not end here....i am returning from my office and i have to pass through the same place where the beggar was in the morning...I am SHOCKED to see the same man sitting in the same posture with the same handkerchief (which is now empty) and the people still doing their best to help him through their "charity". God help him.....

GRE phobia

Yeah yeah....GRE is being a phobia for me...i cant help run away from it...i have lots of excuses to make..i am tired of a whole day work, i need to help my aunt in the kitchen...GRE is not the only thing that the graduate school will be evaluating me on...and on and on...However,now since i am supposed to make a presentation on GRE tomorrow,i realize that i m not the only one who is trying so hard..there are many and many more...so,i will buck up and start preparing for the haunting test.....Wish me luck!!!

Is this what the future holds?

This is a clipping taken from The Himalayan Times, 13th of May 2008, Tuesday.No matter how much we try to change the world, we cannot change it unless these young minds are nurtured with love. They have also learned to protest for every thing thats dissatisfying to them. Is this the way our country will be running?

Fermenting Flowers

"Fermenting Flowers" is the name of the book of poems of a very dear friend of mine Chirag Bangdel. As he calls it, its a small chapbook...but i must tell you, this small chapbook has some wonderful poems and one needs a heart to understand what he is trying to convey through those poems. I had a delightful reading experience and there are many poems in this book that i have come to love, but one of my personal favorites is the poem called Uphill.

The Uphill tires me
You walk fast
and ahead
Strange,
I always thought
that i'd lead you.

You reach to the top
You laugh at me
and my weakness
I am a bad walker

Yet,
you come running back to my arms
laugh at me,still
and push me from behind
all the way to the top.

See?
I am supposed to lead.

Its a lovely collection of short poems and i would suggest all to have a copy of it and enjoy engrossing yourself in the reading!!!

Summer Time.....LazyTime

The days have started getting longer, and for no good...I feel so lazy friends. There is so much to do but every muscle in my body disagrees to work in harmony.When my mind wants to work, my heart doesnt and when the heart gets geared up,my head says, NO PLEASE GIVE ME SOME BREAK...well well...i keep listening to every part, and at the end of the day i have done nothing..Thanks to facebook...most of the times i spend my time with the different applications, the recent one being the twirl text..i havent accomplished much yet,but my word power has for sure increased in one single day..isnt it amazing??so,i cant say i havent accomplished anything throughout the day...can i???
I know, i know, i am not supposed to use facebook while in office but fellas,i need some entertainment...i just hope my boss doesnt read this blog of mine,or i might be fired...lol!!!Anyway folks,i am now feeling bored blogging as well..so i will now search for another source of entertainment for myself..till then,beat the heat and the bland environment,and WORK!!!

Condolence

A friend of mine called me from Birgunj to inform me of his demise. I did not know him in person but i knew him as the younger brother of my mentor. He was a great photographer. He met a train accident while he was on his way to Delhi for his friend's marriage. He and his friend lost balance on the tracks and an ill-fated train passed over them. I cant even imagine the situation.I feel so sorry for him and for the entire family. S is one person I simply admire and seeing him in so much agony breaks my heart apart. I pray to god for his soul to rest in peace and provide strength to the whole family.

Dream On...

I again go back to Dreaming..It feels wonderful to explore a world which might be beyond my reach but which i have liberty to think of..and to dream of...People say just dreaming is not enough, you need to work towards fulfilling them. But i say Dreaming is Believing and if they are intended to get fulfilled, they will get fulfilled even if you don't try.Destiny make things happen and if my dreams are destined to be realized,they will be realized without me making any conscious effort.If i start chasing my dreams to get them fulfilled,i believe they will no more be my dreams...they will become my aim in life and i don't want to trade my dreams for anything.

The only thing that scares me is that i have been losing everything that is close to my heart.I just pray that my dreams are preserved.What can i do to save them?Can i lock them in a box and hide the box in sand?Or can i just let them be there because i have heard that if we stick on something too hard,it will make every possible effort to get away from us.I am confused...I am scared...I am apprehensive...I cherish my dreams so much.Is there any way i can preserve them and save them?I need a solution!!Waiting for one...

Selling Youself

While i was studying Sales Management in college, there was a continuous emphasis put on presenting yourself well to be able to sell your product and services to the customer.Its ironic that while selling something you have to present it in the best of its forms, whether or not it is true.i found it quite funny when my granpa asked me to post the bio-data of a girl for his nephew.The bio-data had everything saleable.The girl was portrayed as the ideal to-be wife and a daughter-in-law.She is "fair" with an attractive body: "Tall", "Slender" and "Sharp Features" is what describes the girl.She is "homely" and wow...her hobbies include "Cooking", "Knitting" and "Sewing". Well, an amazing combination for today's girl..Her to-be in-laws are lucky.....

It makes me wonder...how far do we go to give away our daughter to a group of people who we hardly know...The effort we put in is incredible..The girl might not have the faintest idea on how to sew or knit but this is the best way parents can make their daughters marketable...I just hope that the girl who is being marketed does not have to prove her skills once she is dropped in to her "New Owners". Gud Luck Gurl!!!

To be or Not To Be,,,,

"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else-means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting."

I love this quote. Reminds me so much of my life.

What NEXT????/

I am so disappointed and dishearted with everything that is going around in my country. I really want to do something but i feel helpless...i feel useless...Is there anything i can do?Can i make a difference?I believe that the answer to all my queries is a YES...but i really lack a path..i lack a roadmap on which i can prod. Can anyone please help me find a way in which i can do something.I am not a LPG dealer, nor do i deal with petroleum products.I am not even involved in the strikes around the country.I dont work in the government offices neither am i involved in making plans and policies.I am just an ordinary citizen fighting for my survival amidst so many problems engulfing the country.There is scarcity of everything in the country except for the incessant strikes and bandhs which are quite a common phenomenon,but sadly these bandhs will not be able to fetch us the food...but nobody seems to understand this.Bandhs are opposed with another bandh, which again is opposed by another and the loop continues.Like every citizen,I too keep thinking and thinking but i hardly get any positive vibes after all that is happening.I do not have answer to this one.Anyone Interested to answer-What Next?????

This is one of my fav Songs by Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
Id just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if Id end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

Ill spread my wings and Ill learn how to fly
Ill do what it takes til I touch the sky
Ill make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I wont forget all the ones that I love
Ill make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I dont know where theyll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

Ill spread my wings
And Ill learn how to fly
Though its not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I wont forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Life's Little Treasures

I might sound very philosophical on this one but I have this urge to let go what I am feeling at the moment. All their lives people run after so many things; money, possessions, a decent job, an attractive remuneration, a penthouse, a Mercedes, a luxurious life; to sum up the expectations are most of the times materialistic. No matter how much we talk of our detachment from these luxuries, our life, at one point, gets stuck to them. Yes, people do come over it, because sooner or later, we do realize that life is not just about having in abundance all these things. May be I am too young to comment on what is important in life and what is not so important. However, from what I have learnt and seen so far, having a comfortable life is not mere possession of material goods.

For me, simple things are pleasurable. My niece waiting for me to get her a candy bar makes me feel so important; the feeling is so good. The moments when I can just let go off everything and curl up in my blanket with a book by my side is so very precious to me. Getting the chance to be with the closest friends on weekends rejuvenates and prepares for me the coming week. I cherish the moments when I can just forget the whole world and visit a place all on my own, or just browse the shops trying on the weirdest of clothes I would never even think of purchasing.

Well, financial security is always important. However, earning lots and lots of money is not the prior agenda of my life. I just want my life to be a little better than what it is today….and I can be satisfied with what I have. I would want life’s little treasure always shower on me…I hope it does happen….Amen!!

Wake up folks....

"New York's hitting me hard" complained my fren who, very recently has been to States for her further education. I remember the day she was leaving; so very excited and there was so much of zest inside her..Her excitement has lost somewhere in NY...I hope things turn out good for my sweety...

Foreign land lures everyone, especially the young lot in our country because nobody seems to be getting any positive cues staying here.Nothing's on track;education is very very theoretical,job market is not able to accomodate so many people who are looking for a job,the economic condition is everything but booming,political instability has taken its toll...well,i dont blame anybody who opt for greener pastures in a foreign land.But this is the time to sit and talk about the benefits of staying in our own land and the demerits of surruendering oneself to a bunch of foreigners,who think of us nothing more than a blue-collar worker.

I am not against anybody going to foreign land to broaden their knowledge horizons, but i am against all those who are going there to give themselves up.I am not against those who want to learn something valuable and come back and improve our land, but i am for sure against all those who are giving up their knowledge in making hotdogs and pizzas for the so called "foreigners."

Well,the bragging continues,we will keep complaining but what is important for us is to see the positive sides in the life.If there is night, the sun will for sure shine bright in the morning.Will you abandon your mother if she is suffering?So why is it that we dont hesitate when we are abandoning our motherland at a time when she needs us the most?Think over it and answer yourselves!!!

ZZZzzzzzz.....

The sun is bright in the sky and i have this urge to go to the terrace and indulge myself in a juicy orange...There is a terrace and the orange can be arranged but i wont feel as content as i felt back home..Days were so much fun then..Not to say i am not enjoying being here, just that being home had its own charm and i am sure each of you will agree with me on this.Momma was always there to do all the pending works...whether it is the clothes strewn across the room or the tea boiling on the stove...she would have no issues at all.I would not have to leave the cozy comfort of my blanket to prepare tea for myself,would not have to wash myself in a hurry to cook breakfast for ,or to iron my clothes.Well,this is what happens when u start taking parents for granted.I enjoy cooking,but for others and not for myself. Every morning i go back to those memories and everyday i miss my momma so much....i better call her....so bye folks and u better respect what your parents do for you!!!

Goodbye frens

It was year 2003 when we first entered our college premises and were introduced to a whole new world...Life in college was a blend of fun, euphoria, pressure, challenges, frustration, friendship,and celebration.Why cant life always be the way it was at then. Of course i didnt think this way when i was studying, but today i realize that those moments were one of the best parts of life. No matter how much we hated our teachers for pestering us to do assignments, and projects, no matter how much i yelled at my frens for not being any support in report making, no matter how many differences i had with my frens, and no matter how much my I detested getting out of my warm bed and get ready to go to college in the chilly morning,i have loved every moment at college and cherish them.

The people i have met as friends are one kind.They have been with me through my highs and lows and have created numerous memories to last a lifetime. Two of my closest friends are leaving for the US and it aches my heart to see them leave. But i am delighted for them as they are opening a new chapter of their lives. I wish them all the best for their future and want to let them know how special they are for me and that i will always be there for them.

Love you K and A. Will miss you guys!